Someone Throw Me a Rope

I'm struggling. Why is dieting so hard? After all, a few days ago I was looking at my lowest weight in years and yesterday I ate my way through the day and I'm not doing much better today. Could it be a hormonal response of some sort? An emotional thing? You see, I want desperately to have an excuse--something to blame. However, when it boils down to the facts, it's me. I'm rebelling again. Why do I sabotage myself?

I'm eating enough calories--1,200 a day is adequate for my size. So it's not that I'm starving myself. I've had less work-related stress than in past months. In fact, I have plenty of good things going on: An article in The Writer Magazine, the Medifast Diet article I wrote featured on the main page of LoveToKnow, received a raise from one of my regular clients--no I can't blame it on any of that. So what's the deal? Why am I reverting to poor eating habits? It doesn't make sense. I know permanent changes in my eating and exercise are required for if I want to take off weight sensibly and sustain that weight loss.

It boils down to what I call the mood. I get in this mood and can't seem to snap out of it. Could someone out there throw me a rope and pull me up? I'm about to my ears and sinking fast.

Today's Weight: 135.4